A Break Through in My Sleep!

Two days ago I posted about a block on my writing, a barrier placed by my brain on my stories.  I don’t enjoy calling this Writer’s Block because of all of the stereotypical assumptions that come with that term, from a writer’s POV and a critics.

Still, I was stuck.  And as you may have noticed, I was stuck on two stories, not just one.  Now I also have a day job as well as go to school, both are technically full time.  So while I reread the first lesson in the How to Think Sideways course, I didn’t have time to act on it.

Or so I thought – and at least physically I was correct.  My Muse on the other hand jumped at what Holly calls ‘The Shadow Room’.

All of the following concerns ‘TAaTB’ as I have yet to have had time to also do work for ‘Chasing Maggie’.

I dreamed last night and it was on my characters, the artist and the fitness mogul/biker.  They were honestly things I hadn’t had time to think of, but DID weigh on my subconscious.  The dream I had started out in ‘The Shadow Room’ and lead to the first time one character reveals feelings and leaves the other running.  Literally.

This dream was… amazing.  I was in their bodies, both of them, felt everything.  It was like I was writing/living the scene.  I felt so inspired.

So when I had a moment, I clustered today.  First about the dream and then about the two characters.  Set the timer for 15 minutes (I do most things in 15 minute segments) and before I knew it I was done and was looking up at a BUNDLE of new and interesting clusters on what that scene revealed and one cluster for both characters.  Took only 45 minutes, and now I have something to go on.  Especially because there are some bizarre similarities with the male character as the female character, and they weren’t intentional because the visual (I am a far more visual person) stimulus for the words were completely different.  And not all the words have the same feel, but it’s a similarity non-the-less.  Which makes me want to know what my male character is hiding.

My thought barrier took no thinking at all.  It is SAFE.  Absolutely.  With both stories, especially when writing a sequel to ‘Taking Maggie‘, I am stuck in the SAFE box.  And I didn’t have to look at the description but I did.  “SAFE Never Starts” and it’s true.  The two pages I have for ‘Chasing Maggie’ are the two that were written when I was planning on following up with another chapter.

So SAFE never starts.  The damn-dest thing is, I don’t live a SAFE life.  I am an entrepreneur making very little $ selling products I make BY HAND.  Talk about inviting imperfection and complications.  My husband and I are both full time students as well and I am also chasing this dream of being a writer.  I have no business being in the SAFE zone.

My plan is to follow this up with another session like it tomorrow for ‘Chasing Maggie’.  For now I am going to run with what I have found today.  I’m hoping that when I sit down with these a little later tonight I can overcome the last obstacle for ‘TAaTB’: what pulls them to be in each others lives at first.  Because I only have them in each others’ worlds once a month.  That won’t do.

Stuck and Grumpy – but with a Fix in Mind!

I’m working on two different stories right now and I’m getting a bit stuck with them both.  I have three or four others floating around, but I am determined to finish these two first:

Chasing Maggie (the sequel to Taking Maggie)

The Artist and the Biker (horrible working title)

I am flummoxed with both at this moment, and that’s not a good thing.  Sometimes twists and turns can leave you feeling bewildered as well, but those are often good.  I feel like I was writing and writing and BAM!  Opened up the word document to find a big brick wall in my face!

Now, I know this is what most people call ‘Writer’s Block‘ but I don’t believe it’s something that’s gotta last like so many writers.  I believe that we’ve created the problem and we can solve it.  I’ve had this many times before and there are ways around it – scratch that, there are ways to break through writer’s block.  Not ways around it.

My favorites come from running through Holly Lisle’s How to Think Sideways over again (though she does have a course in just breaking writer’s block).  I’ve been through the HTTS course fully once.  I’ve gone back for fixes and inspiration many, many times.  I keep finding new things in old lessons, but then Holly’s continuously adding to the freaking thing so there’s new stuff in there I haven’t even encountered.  I don’t really use the huge community, I am more of an introvert then someone who likes to share.  Though I did meet Scarlet Darkwood through it!

I figure I’ll be going through it, and it’s a writing thing, so why not share my stuff here?  Obviously I can’t share her lessons but I can at least share my growth and brainstorms and see how I can break through any walls my muse has put in my path.

And at the same time get through my mental blocks on CM and TAaTB.  Because I am stuck in the same place for both of them.  I have CM plotted out (and even more in that series ready to get written) but I am stuck on PAGE 2!!!  And with TAaTB, I’m stuck with the love interest, Brody – who I am seriously thinking of renaming.

Okay, so that’s it for now.  Off to do the first lesson of the course (which is apparently a new first lesson) and to move on to work and homework (still have to keep up with college).

MIA – But Not Lacking Effort

I’ve been a little MIA recently.  It’s a long story, but it ends up with me now completely self-employed again and working my butt off.  At least until Christmas Eve.  I’m a Buddhist, so Christmas is X-Mas to me, a time to spoil others, appreciate what you have in your life and try your best to let everyone know you love them.  Not too shabby!!

On the writing front I have actually published 4 other short stories since ‘Taking Maggie’…  just under another pen name.  I don’t know that I’ll ever share it with anyone, not because what I am writing would turn others off, but because I feel a bit like Stephen King with his Richard Bachman alter-ego.  When I write as this other “person” I am in a different mindset.  I feel different, I write differently, I even sit differently.  It’s wonderful and a great creative spin.

So it comes down to I have been writing (and tweeting and blogging) but on another front.  Add to that the push I created for sales in my Etsy shop (see the ‘Day Job’ tab above) and I kept myself very busy.

I am onto a new story.  I want this one to be longer, around 15k to 20k words.  It’s funny, I remember when I was younger I couldn’t write shorter works.  Everything I wrote was long and tended towards the side of ‘epic’ in it’s literal and not popularized meaning.  Now though, I love kicking out these short ‘already have feelings, but gotta make it to the sex’ pieces.  Of course, when I was a teen that was a good amount of my fanfic too, just they were longer stories.

At the moment I am in the plotting process for what I am unhappily calling “The Artist and the Biker”.  I can’t wait until I come up with a title for this one, even another working title.  I am getting tired of the ‘and the Biker’ add-ons.  I hope to start writing the actual story by at the latest Monday, but sometime this weekend would be great too.

Lastly, I am considering changing my word count goal.  750 has been the goal, because of how busy I am.  However, since my ultimate goal is to shut down the Etsy shop (or at least only sell things I just make in my off time, if I haven’t made them for me) that means that the writing will have to cover that income.  As I’ve figured that if sales balance out, I’d only need 29 more stories to get to the point where I am a fulltime writer.  And if I want them to be longer (at least some of them) 750 words a day is going to make that finish line stretch out waaaaay too far.

Also, considering the financial crunch I am in right now, I am looking at the very realistic goal of fulltime, mostly self-published writer by the end of 2014.  So… yeah.  Wow.  That with the goal (yoga) of holding myself in Scorpion Pose when I can’t even do Bakasana for longer than 2 seconds…  I’ve got some work to do.

At this time I feel 1200 a day is not too much to ask.  When I start the story, I’ll be aiming for that number on a daily basis.  My goal is to get to 3000 a day by March or April.  With each new story comes a little bit more freedom.  And if I happen to have a day job employed by another company (instead of by myself), I’ll be shutting down the Etsy shop completely for a while.

Alright, off to do more plotting, drink more coffee and work more on the Etsy shop 😀

Just A Quickie

I am currently working on a short story to be submitted to Silver Publishing for their Halloween releases.  They’re calling for 5k plus, so I am shooting for around 8k to 11k.  It’s got disguises, haunted houses, easy scares, cheap thrills and hot sex!  Yay!  It’s M/M and I need to get it in by August 25th (I am shooting for the 20th).

I did very little plotting for this one, but I love the fall and Halloween elements.  It has always been my favorite time of the year.  Leaves turning and falling, hoodies, bonfires, a nice chill in the air, Halloween movies on late at night, decorations everywhere for several months on end (lol), the anticipation of a HUGE Thanksgiving meal…

And for me, more schooling!  I’ve got three classes going on and I’m a little thrilled and nervous as this will be the first semester where I’ll be going into a classroom.  At least since I went to film school in West Palm Beach.

So much to look forward to and so little time to do it all!

Sexy, unedited snippet from ‘Beauty and the Biker’

I have been putting my 750 words first in the day, after breakfast and meditation, but today I just seemed to forget and was working on my Etsy shop (see the ‘Day Job’ tab for more info about that) before I realized that, OOPS! gotta get my words in.

So I hit the word processor.  I am now up to 4525 words with ‘Beauty and the Biker’, 847 of that from today cruising through that halfway mark.

I need to find a work count widget for this blog so I can keep the word counts updated daily without having to make a post solely regarding the word counts.

Before I go here is a raw, unedited total first draft snippet of what I am working on.

“Maggie.”  The voice was a low growl and sounded as if it took real effort to get the syllables out.  “Go change.”

She looked down and felt herself pale.  She jean shorts she had were practically daisy dukes but now thanks to the rain they weren’t just short but plastered to her skin, not hiding anything.  Her thin, yellow t-shirt now looked painted on and the material was leaning towards translucent, her pink lacey bra underneath visible, nipples stiffened by the chill.

As she looked up from under her lashes at Lance, her eyes wild, her mouth opened to say something, anything… but it was too late.  She saw his resolve to stand there like a statue – to be a gentleman – snap.

In two large strides he met her, one hand sliding into her loose bun and yanking out the hair tie, the other simultaneously pushing against the small of her back, bringing her closer to him.

That’s it for today.  I have a huge ‘To Do’ list that I need to get to so have a great day, all!

Writing Updates – Word Count

Most Current Word Counts
Most Current Word Counts

My daily goal at the moment is 750 words.  Yesterday I got 796 and today I got a whopping 1429.  The only bummer was that they weren’t on the same story.

I’m going to try and keep a tab somewhere on this blog of my daily word counts.  Anyone wishing to join in, just leave comments or better yet, go see if Holly Lisle is doing her “Write a Book with Me” game.  I know when she had migraines she took off from that, and she’s got a ton of new lessons up and coming so I am not sure she is, but if you’re a member on her forums (some are free) then you can catch up with some games going on there.  Or you can just run over to Twitter and play some word wars – there are almost always some going on.

The other thing I marked off my ‘To Do’ List today was to gather up my current open stories (with more than 1000 words OR part of a series, a full plot and mainly erotic content) list where I am with them and put them in plain view.

So far I’ve got only a handful that meet that exact criteria, though I also have two that I started writing in notebooks while I was at work, and those two I need to start typing up soon.

All titles are working titles.

Super Short

To Do Lists for Shop & Writing
To Do Lists for Shop & Writing

“New Territory” (Corrine’s Adventures): 501/3500

“Lessons in Sharing” (Corrine’s Adventures): 0/3500

“Full Submission” (Corrine’s Adventures): 0/3500

Short

“Leo & Mariana” 3537/5000

“Beauty and the Biker” 2908/8000

 

Novella

Rook City Fire Fighters: 20,979/30,000

 

My goal is to have set deadlines to have the first drafts finished, sent off to my betas, get my cover artist to work on covers, then get them back to format then publish.  I’ve got more goals than what I have listed on the board, but this is how I am keeping things covered for now.

I am hoping to be able to get another story published by mid to late July.

More later!

 

Busy Day, Not Leaving out the SEX!

I had a busy day today with taxes, bills, finances, customer service, orders and family.  Yesterday was nice, my brother came to visit, but that left more work for me to get done today and tomorrow.  Tons of sales from the day job really made my day today and now I am sitting at the computer ready to get my minimum word count before finishing up the orders.

I’ve gone over the plot for the next few story’s in the ‘Corrine’s Adventure’ series.  The ending of ‘Master’s Return‘ gave me an unexpected surprise.  Usually I keep my characters reigned in, but Manuel told Corrine she was taking a three day weekend immediately.  So now I’ve had to rearrange my stories (even deleted one after the plot of ‘Master’s Return‘ switched around on me!!) and while I’m not entirely sure what the heck she’s going to be doing for the entire three days, it’s promising to be and intense love-fest, lol.

I’m also intrigued with a few other stories I’ve got fluttering around here.  I also am losing a little weight (hard work pays off!!) and have been looking at some lingerie and – as personal as that might be – it’s given me an incredibly fun idea for a trilogy of novellas, about 15k a piece, with three different women, all friends and all with different tastes in lovers and sexual encounters.

Looking forward to fleshing that series out, but for now I’m going to work a little on a PWP that’s just for stress relief and fun!

Good night all!

End Game Plot Bunnies & Pushing to the Finish Line

I’ve heard a few other writers have this same issue: at the end of the novel/story – if you can manage to get there in the first place – you get distracted.  All of a sudden there are plot bunnies hopping around and fornicating left and right.  Andplot bunnies have no gestation period.  It’s fornicate = multiply, fornicate = multiply.

While this is good in the way of ideas (although sometimes they’re only good ideas in the way your ideas in dreams are good; when you wake up and smell the coffee you wonder where your subconscious is getting the dream crack) it’s bad in the way of getting something finished.

Today and yesterday I’ve filled with day job work, jotting down ideas, husband time and more day job work.  I seem to be avoiding wrapping up the second story.  Which is sad because Corrine’s Adventure’s: Master has so far been my more popular story.

So, while I am curious as to what exactly I am avoiding, first on tomorrow’s To Do list is finish the damn thing.  Not get my word count, but FINISH.  I want to have it off to the beta and back by Wednesday with a cover from my cover artist due as soon as she gets finished…  I want this thing out by Friday if possible, but at the latest next Sunday.

I am off for now however I would be a tool not to mention my awesome new header/banner for my blog.  It’s simple, fun, silly, sexy and of course caffeinated.  If you’re interested cover art or headers check out my friend, Kristin Mummert!  Don’t be afraid to approach her no matter what: she works with every budget!  Even mine, lol.

Update on ‘Corrine’s Adventures’ Part 2

Eleven days with no update, wow, I got really lazy. Okay, well, it wasn’t laziness. It was life trying to get in the way and I let it. However well things are going in one area, something else always slips. I will try not to let that something in the future be writing.

I let my Master story get away from me. Today I have chopped it down to roughly 2900 words. It was going in the wrong direction. I was trying to force it to be a night over at his house when Corrine and Manuel obviously had other plans. So it looks as if this will be a sort of in between story for them. The next one – I hope – will be at his house.

So I’ve got to wrap this one up, edit it, send it to my beta (looking for another beta, btw! please message, email or DM me on Twitter if you’re interested) and get to work coming up with a new cover idea – since it’s not the ‘Night Over’ storyline – and the stuff sent to @KMMDesigns so she can work her magic!

Can’t wait to get this up and published.  Deadline to have it in the Amazon store is next Friday.

Well, off to work on a new item for the day job!!