Old Idea Finally Starting to Sprout

I have been working on a few ideas, but I’ve put them aside for maybe just “weekend” quickies (my working “weekend” is Sunday and Monday).  I’ve put them aside because I am very, VERY excited about a project I am calling FOSTER.  That is the name for the series.  It’s not a person’s first or last name or anything, but it fits.  Supernatural elements, erotic sex, and hopefully thrilling pace and plot twists!!  It’s a series with the same male protagonists in each book, two sexy guys that might end up with hot ladies but their main goals in the books are actually plot driven.

I’ve been mulling over this idea for a few years now, but it feels like the right time!

What are YOU excited about right now?  Do you have any ideas you’ve been chewing on for a while but haven’t had the time/guys to follow through?

Motorcycle Accident Delay and Coming Up Fighting

Just as things were starting to get on a roll again with my writing, my husband had an idiot pull out in front of him while he was on his motorcycle. Because she – and her trailer – failed to yield the right of way to him (but not to two cars in front of him because if she happened to hit them, that would hurt her) he was life flighted from the local hospital to another for head trauma. Luckily there was no lasting head injury, but he still suffered major injuries – fractures through his face, body and leg and a shattered humerus just to name the major ones.

He’s still not fully healed, but he’s doing sooooo much better and is mostly back to being fully independent (mostly). So now I am back with a vengeance because we need money now more than ever for the bills, especially because Gieco is a slimely, sleezy company that attempts to get out of paying for anything. I have had nothing but bad experiences with them, even when I was a customer of theirs with brand new car with full coverage.

So I need to write a bunch of stories that I want to write anywho, but I need to write them now, asap, so that I can get them up and perhaps start paying some of these medical bills down. Because the insurance isn’t going to cover them all.

So I have just gone into Holly Lisle’s site again, How to Think Sideways, and opened up my copy of 21 Ways to Get Yourself Writing When Your Life Has Just Exploded and I’m going to be devouring this while I finish up the remaining Etsy orders (see The Day Job tab) that need to go out. I started writing two days ago and got a few words, then again yesterday, but I’m swamped, stressed and unfocused. I need to fix this and fix it now so that I can start digging myself out of piecework and finally turn the corner on owning my own success doing something that I love.

So I am going to spend today reading that (while making jewelry) and coming up with a list of stories and books, as well as start working on my second (and much requested) Etsy book.

A Break Through in My Sleep!

Two days ago I posted about a block on my writing, a barrier placed by my brain on my stories.  I don’t enjoy calling this Writer’s Block because of all of the stereotypical assumptions that come with that term, from a writer’s POV and a critics.

Still, I was stuck.  And as you may have noticed, I was stuck on two stories, not just one.  Now I also have a day job as well as go to school, both are technically full time.  So while I reread the first lesson in the How to Think Sideways course, I didn’t have time to act on it.

Or so I thought – and at least physically I was correct.  My Muse on the other hand jumped at what Holly calls ‘The Shadow Room’.

All of the following concerns ‘TAaTB’ as I have yet to have had time to also do work for ‘Chasing Maggie’.

I dreamed last night and it was on my characters, the artist and the fitness mogul/biker.  They were honestly things I hadn’t had time to think of, but DID weigh on my subconscious.  The dream I had started out in ‘The Shadow Room’ and lead to the first time one character reveals feelings and leaves the other running.  Literally.

This dream was… amazing.  I was in their bodies, both of them, felt everything.  It was like I was writing/living the scene.  I felt so inspired.

So when I had a moment, I clustered today.  First about the dream and then about the two characters.  Set the timer for 15 minutes (I do most things in 15 minute segments) and before I knew it I was done and was looking up at a BUNDLE of new and interesting clusters on what that scene revealed and one cluster for both characters.  Took only 45 minutes, and now I have something to go on.  Especially because there are some bizarre similarities with the male character as the female character, and they weren’t intentional because the visual (I am a far more visual person) stimulus for the words were completely different.  And not all the words have the same feel, but it’s a similarity non-the-less.  Which makes me want to know what my male character is hiding.

My thought barrier took no thinking at all.  It is SAFE.  Absolutely.  With both stories, especially when writing a sequel to ‘Taking Maggie‘, I am stuck in the SAFE box.  And I didn’t have to look at the description but I did.  “SAFE Never Starts” and it’s true.  The two pages I have for ‘Chasing Maggie’ are the two that were written when I was planning on following up with another chapter.

So SAFE never starts.  The damn-dest thing is, I don’t live a SAFE life.  I am an entrepreneur making very little $ selling products I make BY HAND.  Talk about inviting imperfection and complications.  My husband and I are both full time students as well and I am also chasing this dream of being a writer.  I have no business being in the SAFE zone.

My plan is to follow this up with another session like it tomorrow for ‘Chasing Maggie’.  For now I am going to run with what I have found today.  I’m hoping that when I sit down with these a little later tonight I can overcome the last obstacle for ‘TAaTB’: what pulls them to be in each others lives at first.  Because I only have them in each others’ worlds once a month.  That won’t do.

Stuck and Grumpy – but with a Fix in Mind!

I’m working on two different stories right now and I’m getting a bit stuck with them both.  I have three or four others floating around, but I am determined to finish these two first:

Chasing Maggie (the sequel to Taking Maggie)

The Artist and the Biker (horrible working title)

I am flummoxed with both at this moment, and that’s not a good thing.  Sometimes twists and turns can leave you feeling bewildered as well, but those are often good.  I feel like I was writing and writing and BAM!  Opened up the word document to find a big brick wall in my face!

Now, I know this is what most people call ‘Writer’s Block‘ but I don’t believe it’s something that’s gotta last like so many writers.  I believe that we’ve created the problem and we can solve it.  I’ve had this many times before and there are ways around it – scratch that, there are ways to break through writer’s block.  Not ways around it.

My favorites come from running through Holly Lisle’s How to Think Sideways over again (though she does have a course in just breaking writer’s block).  I’ve been through the HTTS course fully once.  I’ve gone back for fixes and inspiration many, many times.  I keep finding new things in old lessons, but then Holly’s continuously adding to the freaking thing so there’s new stuff in there I haven’t even encountered.  I don’t really use the huge community, I am more of an introvert then someone who likes to share.  Though I did meet Scarlet Darkwood through it!

I figure I’ll be going through it, and it’s a writing thing, so why not share my stuff here?  Obviously I can’t share her lessons but I can at least share my growth and brainstorms and see how I can break through any walls my muse has put in my path.

And at the same time get through my mental blocks on CM and TAaTB.  Because I am stuck in the same place for both of them.  I have CM plotted out (and even more in that series ready to get written) but I am stuck on PAGE 2!!!  And with TAaTB, I’m stuck with the love interest, Brody – who I am seriously thinking of renaming.

Okay, so that’s it for now.  Off to do the first lesson of the course (which is apparently a new first lesson) and to move on to work and homework (still have to keep up with college).

MIA – But Not Lacking Effort

I’ve been a little MIA recently.  It’s a long story, but it ends up with me now completely self-employed again and working my butt off.  At least until Christmas Eve.  I’m a Buddhist, so Christmas is X-Mas to me, a time to spoil others, appreciate what you have in your life and try your best to let everyone know you love them.  Not too shabby!!

On the writing front I have actually published 4 other short stories since ‘Taking Maggie’…  just under another pen name.  I don’t know that I’ll ever share it with anyone, not because what I am writing would turn others off, but because I feel a bit like Stephen King with his Richard Bachman alter-ego.  When I write as this other “person” I am in a different mindset.  I feel different, I write differently, I even sit differently.  It’s wonderful and a great creative spin.

So it comes down to I have been writing (and tweeting and blogging) but on another front.  Add to that the push I created for sales in my Etsy shop (see the ‘Day Job’ tab above) and I kept myself very busy.

I am onto a new story.  I want this one to be longer, around 15k to 20k words.  It’s funny, I remember when I was younger I couldn’t write shorter works.  Everything I wrote was long and tended towards the side of ‘epic’ in it’s literal and not popularized meaning.  Now though, I love kicking out these short ‘already have feelings, but gotta make it to the sex’ pieces.  Of course, when I was a teen that was a good amount of my fanfic too, just they were longer stories.

At the moment I am in the plotting process for what I am unhappily calling “The Artist and the Biker”.  I can’t wait until I come up with a title for this one, even another working title.  I am getting tired of the ‘and the Biker’ add-ons.  I hope to start writing the actual story by at the latest Monday, but sometime this weekend would be great too.

Lastly, I am considering changing my word count goal.  750 has been the goal, because of how busy I am.  However, since my ultimate goal is to shut down the Etsy shop (or at least only sell things I just make in my off time, if I haven’t made them for me) that means that the writing will have to cover that income.  As I’ve figured that if sales balance out, I’d only need 29 more stories to get to the point where I am a fulltime writer.  And if I want them to be longer (at least some of them) 750 words a day is going to make that finish line stretch out waaaaay too far.

Also, considering the financial crunch I am in right now, I am looking at the very realistic goal of fulltime, mostly self-published writer by the end of 2014.  So… yeah.  Wow.  That with the goal (yoga) of holding myself in Scorpion Pose when I can’t even do Bakasana for longer than 2 seconds…  I’ve got some work to do.

At this time I feel 1200 a day is not too much to ask.  When I start the story, I’ll be aiming for that number on a daily basis.  My goal is to get to 3000 a day by March or April.  With each new story comes a little bit more freedom.  And if I happen to have a day job employed by another company (instead of by myself), I’ll be shutting down the Etsy shop completely for a while.

Alright, off to do more plotting, drink more coffee and work more on the Etsy shop 😀

In Writing Sexy Characters – How Do You Get Away from Your Own Type?

First I want to say that I am currently sitting at 7442 out of 8000 for the Biker romance.  I might even knock out the words I need (two sex scenes) tonight but I doubt it.  I have homework, housework and workwork to do.  I’m looking forward to finishing this one.

It is going to need pretty extensive editing before I can get it to my beta readers.  First more description on all 5 senses, more of the female character’s personality and more of the biker theme or else a totally different title.  Once I am done I can put it aside for three days and work on something else until moving on to editing.

So, before I get on to my main point of this post, I did want to pose a question.  With a title like “Beauty and the Biker” is it expected that there would be a LOT of Biker Theme throughout the book?  Like biker bars, motorcycle poker runs, her/him riding on the motorcycle, biker friends, etc?  Or is it enough that the male main character is a biker & tough; dresses like one, talks and acts like one and rides his bike all the time?  I feel as though that’s not enough “biker” to use that title.

Now, to my main point: I have a type.  Looking at all the men that I have had crushes on and the man I married, it’s painfully obvious: I like tall, lean men with dark eyes, dark hair, tattoos.  Sometimes a not-so-perfect past is involved.  Gruff, strong men.  Silent types.

However, I totally get that my readers might not share my tastes.  Or they might like that type but obviously they don’t want the same hero/love interest in every book.

So as a writer, I have to create different looking men for the books.  I’ve read a number of authors who don’t do this and it’s irritating.  Sometimes to the point of not buying another one of their books.  And when they reuse the same description of a four different men in four different books?  Definitely time to get another writer’s work.

So I am just trying to find a good medium.  I’m not going to write about people I would never in a million years find attractive.  It’s not just about what *I* want to write either, but what my readers want to read.  If I don’t like the characters (or want the love interest) I feel as though that will come through in my writing, no matter how hard I try.  No reader wants to read an erotic story with no chemistry, so it’s best to write characters that I feel are sexy.  Characters that have a certain set of convictions and attitudes about life, if not at the beginning, then at the end.  And they don’t always have to be alike.  Take Martin Riggs from the Lethal Weapon series and James Bond.  Very different, and yet sexy.  Or the two antiheroes of Bodhi from Point Blank and Hitman from “Hitman“.  Both of those characters are completely different, but there are attractive features in both.

So I figure as long as I have characters that fit certain perimeters that *I* find attractive, I can fake the looks part.

The only problem I am running into now is remembering what my guy looks like *facepalm*.  This biker guy is a blond (can’t think of one that I’ve had a crush on since I was 4 and fell in love with Heman) with some color eyes that I cannot even NOW remember.  She’s a dark brunette with light blue eyes.  Now why can I remember her, but not him?  I mean, he’s sexy as hell to me, but his looks are a little ambiguous right now, I guess because I picture my husband.

I have been writing and finishing fiction (romance and erotica too) for 16 years now and I never been one that needed the “character description” notes, but I guess I’ll start.  Or download pictures of hot guys to be that character.

What about other writers?  If you’re reading this let me know your thoughts.  What do you find sexy in either looks or personality?  What do you do in your writing to compensation for a difference in tastes but not compromise your personal affection for the characters?

A Bit of Blahblah and a Little Naughty Cock Talk

Whew!  Last night I got around 2000 words done on the erotic short and this morning I worked on the edit.  I’m changing the name from “Wet Dues” to “Stranded Co-Worker”.  It’s ready for publication, I’m just waiting for the $ to purchase a photo then send it over to my cover artist.  This one is part of the “Time for a Change” series.

I’m already working on another in the same series, a currently untitled story  with: Office Sex, Male Dom, Light BDSM,  and Light Anal Play.  I do love me some rough and bossy men!  Ha.

Last but not least I am working on a couple of free stories for this blog.  I’ll have a separate tab for them once I have at least one ready and then the tab will have links to the stories as separate blog posts.  I’ll keep the most current one(s) on top.  Nothing better than a free erotic story to show what a writer is capable of.

Speaking of showing, here’s a really short bit from the story I finished up last night:

His large hand came down around my throat, eliciting a whimper from me, but he was surprisingly gentle. His thumb caressing my skin in long, smooth strokes. I shut my eyes. “Those little noises drive me nuts, Hannah.”

His naked body pressed into me, pushing the bathroom door shut again. This time the click was deafening. “That was more than a couple seconds.” His breath was on my lips. “Tell me you want to leave right now, Hannah.” His hand slid to my collarbone. “I’ll let you go if you just say that’s what you want.”

“It’s not,” I whispered.

“Look at me.”

I opened my eyes and looked into his. I felt a tear escape. He stared at my face, his eyes lidded and lustful. His hand slid slowly up my neck and into my hair. He tugged, pulling my lips harshly to his. He kissed me hard, his teeth pulling at my bottom lip then his tongue over-powering mine. I moan, I can’t help it, and my arms wrap around his waist. He breaks the kiss, but kept his hand in my hair.

Pushing his body into mine I feel his thick cock through the robe.

“Fucking hell, Hannah. You have no idea what you do to men, do you?”

Well, that’s it for now, folks!